I honestly don't know how to start this blog post. Not that I'm scared to talk about it, if you know me real well, I'm quite open when it comes to this topic, but just writing it down, where do I start?
I guess I'll start with my 'Disability'.
Why in quotations? Cause I see my disability as more of a mental challenge. Not physical. It challenges me daily, and I'm still learning more about it.
(I think this is the story, if you ask my mother she'll probably be like "No thats not right")
When I was in Grade 1, my teacher realised I was learning a bit differently than others and a bit slower than others, and suggested my parents go get me tested. So they did, and I was diagnosed to be on the Autistic Spectrum. So I've got Autism.
Now I hate saying I have Autism. Because there is SO MANY FORMS of Autism. Highly Intelligent (AKA Aspergers Syndrome), Low Functioning, and my God theres probably that many more. And when I say I have Autism people AUTOMATICALLY assume - I struggle with people skills, I can't talk, I can't understand things, and that basically I need assistance with all things.
Yes, I have stuggles with basic social skills, but I see a social worker and trust me I'm a whole lot better than I was when I was 10. Yes I struggle to understand basic things you learned when you were 16. Yes I need assistance with most things - But I choose to be as independent as I can be.
My Autism level (They go on Levels now instead of saying 'low functioning') is between High Funtioning and Aspergers - From what I understand. I don't really care. Well I do, but I don't.
Feel free to ask me Question on my Instagram (@xobrontie) and I will do a Q&A on anything you want to know. I really don't know what to type.
For mental health. At about 12 I was diagnosed with Major Depression and Anxiety.
My Anxiety/Panic Attacks effect me more than my depression does. I can get really bad if not on my anti-depressants (Also if you are curious as to what I'm on, as I'm on a few tablets I'm open to answer that too), I can get suicidal thoughts, and basically can cry at any point, in other words I'm a wreck.
My Anxiety can get real bad, I can't answer the phone or else I have a major panic attack. I don't cope with stress at all. This is the current reason why I'm MIA from Instagram right now - I'm not going to get into that now as I don't want to feel like shit again.
What I want to end with saying is that I have been told all my life "You Can't" And I want to prove that I can. Just because I have struggles in my life, doesn't mean I can't do things. I follow these quotes:
Believe You Can And You Are Halfway There
If You Never Try You Will Never Know
The Key To Happiness Is Learning To Say No To People And Things That Stress You Out.
I have all these 3 on canvas'. One I made, the others my Dad gave me and the other was bought from Typo recently.
Again if you have any questions, feel free to ask me on my Instagram, or Message me there.
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